As we speak today, I write this with the Monogamy Monster at bay and I have no desire to commit to any girl. However, I do enjoy, especially in the colder months have a regular thing with someone and then as the warmer months come, turn back into that adventurous vagabond. This winter is no different, I want to have the regularity without the commitment and it’s tough to have your cake and eat it too. It comes down to just being honest and not fucking anybody about and that goes both ways. I won’t let her hold me hostage to anything and I have no intention of hoodwinking her into something she hasn’t signed up for, women are crazy enough as it is, you don’t need to add fuel to the fire.
So what’s on my mind, basically I have two potential girls, neither of whom I would describe as girls that I click with but I enjoy spending time with them. So far the girl in the lead is the girl from this lay report simply because I like her more and she’s more consistent than the other girl, Karolina from this lay report(she’s the second one) and I actually had to say to her a few weeks ago that I’m not going to chase her because she was just shitty at getting back to me. That being said, she’s better this week but if I do keep seeing her, it’ll be just sex.
With Adele, I know I have to be careful, she’s already showing signs of potentially wanting more than I can give her. I don’t want to end up having a Hank Moody style break up, I’d rather nip that shit in the bud. In terms of signs, we have the birthday cake, it was a nice gesture but if we’re going to get gamey about it, it’s a fair bit of investment. Also this week, she “joked” about us going away somewhere, I don’t know how it even happened but she managed to shoehorn it into the conversation so I’m ready for whatever’s coming. I’m seeing her later today and I’m going to through out a few more feelers to see where her mindset is and work from there. I’ve come to realise there is no nice way to let someone down, so you just have to bite the bullet and get on with it, if it comes to it.
I think this will be the last Monogamy Monster post for a while but it’s an ongoing thing in my life so it’ll be back for sure.